i just need to get away .

i think im either becoming

number one:
crazy


or



number two:
depressed


i certainly hope its number one because i wouldnt want to get depressed or even worse. EMO. so horrible sia. i guess most the ppl reading this have never seen me be emo before but facts are facts.
i have been emo before and after that month i vowed never to do that ever again ..


but of course la. my emo-ness isnt those very very severe kind. eg. cutting wrist blahblah
so relax. i was just like lost in my own world and very cold to even my bestest frens thats all .

i duno la. these few days i havent been able to reali laugh like i used to . and im always like very quiet most of the time. and im experiencing severe loss of appetite. i survived two days on two bars of chocolate.

:O

aiya. what i need is to just get away from singapore and enjoy a few days without the huslte and bustle of the city. and homework . and trainings (altho i do enjoy certain sessions but no matter what trainings are tiring). and most of all

school

BIGFATUGYIDIOTICSTINKISHBLOBOFPOOP.

dang. i wonder how ppl actually enjoy education . well of course.. it would be possible for ppl to enjoy education if sch wasnt so stressful. i noe its like insensitive of me to be complaining about me getting too much education because some kids in the world dont even have a chance at it but i wouldnt mind sharing some with them HAHA . but that'll never happen. i duno la. whenever i think of sch i will feel like crying leh . is that serious? i duno .


my mom said that i was an easily satisfied person . is that so ?
i beg to differ.
okae mayb to some extent i do get easily satisfied.
sleeping in makes me happy hahah. i havent done that in a long time. i just took a nap just now . amazing. cuz i have neverbeen able to fall asleep on my previous attempts. yepp because of that i am satisfied.

i just want a holiday without school thats all . some homework will do but not too much. i will get over-stressed. and most of all i want sleep-in holidays not holidays where i have to wake up early almost everyday and go for training. early in the morning. zzzzzzzzzzzzzz

actually up till now i havent actually enjoyed myself during the hols. that sucks.

all thanks to sch la. i duno y altho its like in the fourth week i keep thinking its tmr and whenever i think of it i will feel like crying.

aiya.

i think im too uptight.

i shall drown my uptight-ness in audition . so long.